Is this what Amber feels like?

Oh hi. Sorry. Can you help? I can’t seem to find that thing, I don’t seem to have it anymore, so it must have fallen out my pocket somewhere. You know, that thing I had? Have you seen it? Oh I’m sorry I can’t explain what it looks like, but you see I haven’t really…

“You’re such a snowflake”

“You’re such a snowflake” he spits through his stale breath, standing in his ill-fitted musk smelling suit, protected by his un-oppressed privilege. Anger roars within and I unforgivingly let out a controversial sigh. I ponder, I smile, and I reply “You’re right. I am in fact a unique, beautiful, captivating, individual phenomenon.” You see as…

I’m feelin’ myself

Across Europe Mental Health issues affect 1 in 3 people and since about September 2018, I have been that 1 in 3. BUT HOLD UP, I’d also like to point out it’s been a good few weeks since that agonising heavy ache in my chest/body has followed me around, AND GODDAMN DOES THAT FEEL GREAT,…

Growth

“If it doesn’t challenge you, it won’t change you” Fred Devito Months back, when my mind first broke I knew no matter how dark it got, this journey must be happening for a reason. As hard as it was to believe back then, I held on to that belief because I am a firm believer…

Each new day…

I watch the sun come up over the quaint Playa Blanca, cold but my face welcomes it’s golden rays. I’ve always had a thing about sunrises and sunsets, they’re naturally refreshing, dawn brings a new opportunity and a chance to start afresh. Each dusk gives you chance to reflect, knowing if anything didn’t go to…

March 3rd

  Our parting words etched in my mind On the cusp, now clenched tighter than my life So vivid, still here, only trapped in a place in cannot get to Like the carrot dangled before the donkey   Deep breaths, choked   The lakes in front of me shimmer, pebbles beneath the water glisten Echoing…

Find me.

MH gets the best of me. Takes control of me. Something within ignites, ritually. Because I am not a nasty person, nor am I rude. But it takes its grasp on me, like an inner feud. The anger, aggression, complete irritation. The palpitations, sadness, heaviness weighs down and it looms. Clings to me, grips like…

I am The Future.

The biggest thing I have realised after my mental health breakdown is that the side effects of it will be with me for life. Initially I thought it was just a period of my life that I was struggling with. That ultimately it would settle back down and I would return to normal Amber. However,…

‘You’re doing great, Sweetie’

To the girl that woke up today, you’re great. It may have been a little later than usual, but you still need to rest. You’re still exhausted from that time and that’s okay. Sleep. Sleep until you feel the energy to roll out of bed; you’re not grumpy, you’re not lazy. You are healing. I’m proud of…

My friend, Nature.

Those who caught this weeks episode of WinterWatch won’t need to be told how much of a moving episode it was. For those of you who didn’t, CATCH UP ON IPLAYER! (Sorry, didn’t mean to shout) The episode shared the story of Joe Harkness, author of Bird Therapy, who found comfort dealing with his mental…